I so resonate with Paul's words in Romans 7 where he struggles with sin. It is an enigma to me why I sin when I don't want to, but I do. There is always a battle of some kind within us. Each of us has our own special vulnerabilities where we are weak and susceptible to sin. Being aware of one's "Achilles' Heel," helps in staying guarded and protected, but I will still stumble and fall down...again and again. 

 

I Stumble and Fall Down

 

I stumble and fall down

But, Jesus helps me off the ground

 

Just when I think life is good

Standing the best I could

 

Then I fall into my own hole dug

I regret again with "shoulds" and "woulds"

 

It's my blame; its always the same

My wants and desires, the human hunger game

 

The person I see in the mirror taunts

My mistakes, wrongs, and errors constantly haunt

 

Why do I do what I do

When I know I knew what I knew

 

How can I stoop and bend that low

Continually knocking myself with each blow

 

In my dark hole, it is lonely and cold

The falling over and over will take its toll

 

The battle rages, living within

As I struggle and joust with my very own sin

 

Sometimes I have no idea where to begin

And I think the torment will never end

 

How do I find my way out

From my hole I scream, cry, and shout

 

Nowhere to go, the darkness blinds my sight

It seems each time, I just can't get it right

 

So nowhere to look, but up to the Light

To see God staring into my sight

 

His mercy and grace are extended to me

He helps me once again to clearly see

 

So I stumbled and fell down

But Jesus was there to help me back off the ground

 

"I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.... As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing.  Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.... What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!"

Romans 7: 15, 17, 18, 19, 20, 24, 25